for the past few days I've been trying to find answers to why am i serving God.

well I've got part of my answer thanks to James, i can't remember what he said, but it linked up to this phrase - without God i won't be who i am today. -

i'm not saying i'm a big shot person or anything but without God how am i able to find this passion in food, without God i don't know what on earth will i be doing now, without God i won't be able to know myself better. all these things came together because of him and serving him is a choice, now i got to learn how to live life in a balance, if i don't get it now, i won't be able to plant churches or do anything right.

well this is just one part of it... more to come.