Merry Christmas and a happy new year!

Christmas is really a busy time of year, too many things to do.. too much money spent.. it's a killer time of the year... anyway... this is what i'm gonna blog...

Title: the best gift
Main verse: mark 12:41-44

before Christmas, i was watching Tv and there many shows talking about Christmas... even cartoons are talking about what Christmas is all about. the main thing is about giving.. yes that is correct.. giving.. but giving without a giving heart is not a gift at all.. in the scriptures we can find.. as we can see in mark 12: 41-44. the women gave the most out of all the people giving and i bet she felt shameful when she was giving the offering.. but this is what Jesus said, She gave the most out of everyone.. why?.. is because of her heart attitude... 1 Samuel 16:7. God looks at the heart!.. hey friends if you are reading this don't be shameful about your gifts.. even if you can't afford the expensive gift it's alright.. because i tell you the truth you have already gave the most expensive gift, which is your heart.

this famous verse that everyone knows. John 3:16.. for god so love the world that he gave his one and only son... did god said that i give the dog to die for you?.. well it can happen.. but no! because God love us so much that he wants to give his Best and we all must learn for this character from God.. it is biblical to give your best.. if you got no heart to give don't bother giving at all... when we put our offerings, do we give the best?.. well if no, then your offerings are rubbish to god. same as when we sing songs to god do we sing with our heart?... if not that is just noise to god's ears... last night i watched this new movie "I am legend".. this is a biblical show... i won't spoil it by telling you the whole show, but i must say the last part... in the end he gave his life to save mankind.. he was the ultimate sacrifice.. he believe that he can cure it and he did, he put his heart in it and it was not in vain....

i pray that whoever read this will know the true gift of christmas, it's not the gift but is the heart... Father i pray that you will bless this person reading this with a heart that longs to give, in money, time, service and i pray that this person reading this will find the true gift that you gave 2007 years ago.. holy spirit touch the hearts of the people move in them. In jesus name i pray amen.

i have this problem that i want to share and hoping that someone will teach me, it's not personal..

I'm a hardcore thinker, i think and think and think until my white hairs comes out, i don't FEEL.. I'm on the other extreme.... i can understand people's hardship, or things they want to do, but i don't feel it... how i know when people are down, i observe them not feel that something is not right...
only a few things that i feel.
1) God's love.. yes i can feel god and his love
2)when i like someone.
3) sometimes i can feel things are not right.

i don't know how to be balance, sometimes or many times people tell me that when i stare at them i give them the emotionless look... what should i do? my mind has overpowered my heart that everything is logic, but here is something interesting, the mind cannot understand things that are not logical, but here it is supernatural.. my mind can accept supernatural. It is until the point that supernatural is logical... well because i did a little study and experience on it, so now is logical.. who can help?

10 weeks have passed since school started.... next Monday is my EXAMS!.... and this Tuesday was my practical exam... i nearly screwed it up, but thank God it turned out to be alright but for the result i don't know until next term starts, so after next week i got my 4 weeks break which i think is very very long, but i better enjoy while i can because the next sem i only got 1 week break... it's tough to reach out to the people there in shatec, you may see everyone is united, but the truth is everyone is seperated in heart.

God is good all the time and all the time God is good.
as the going gets tough, you are more real.