end of 2009

it's ending soon, another year just pass like that. soon 2010 will just pass us by as well..

let's see what i've grown this year...
basically this year was just pure work for me.. but that does not mean i did not grow.

i've grown in my physical endurance, working 16 hours everyday i'm sure i can go through bigger things.
i've grown in my thinking.. after going through the kitchen, it helped me to think properly, know which is more important, and it does not only apply in the kitchen but also daily life.
i've also grow in my walk with God, praying and depending on him for strength to go through everyday life in the kitchen and also God did miracles when i did some stuff wrong.. he saved me!.. and i built and strong bond in the kitchen with my boss and sous chef.. love them..haha..

so what's next yr resolution?

this is what i have... to rise in leadership.. why?, i think it's a joy to lead.. although there will be many pains.. and also because i know i'm called to lead, and i will answer that call..
i'm ready

KuKup

It was my first time there, i didn't expect it to be very fun. The main thing was the fireworks that's all, all of us were very crazy.. well, when you are with a bunch of crazy people you can't stop them but to join them haha..

the first stop was the fish farm that was out in the sea, there were many farms. and here is one of it.

something happened over there to xz and it was the start of the day to laugh.. you should ask here, if i blog it down, i'll be dead!..lol and also another thing that happened over there, poor Glenn stepped on a big pile of dog crap..lol.. ask him..haha

so after that we head back to have lunch, and the food.. i can't say anything.. it made me think that i should lower my standard of good food.. on the other hand i can't because if i lower that standard, then it will affect me on the things that i make. the best is try not to ask me on how's the food.. i'll comment only when people ask, when the food is really really bad and if i go to a restaurant.

so after lunch we head back to the chalet, it is really in good condition... but i wonder how they lay the foundations and all that?

and this is something interesting that i took.

this is a shit hole.. yes a shit hole.. everything goes back to the sea. but there is also a proper toilet in the chalet and it's clean so no worries.

so when we checked in i was wondering what to do, didn't bring any movies or ktv dvd... until i heard the firecracker!!... a few of us went to search where to buy it and found that it was just next door, it was like a black market! only you can get it there and xz was the one who helped us bargain..haha.. until at night we realise that the black market ripped us of a lot of cash. because there was another man came and asked if we would want to buy.

so we bought the firecrackers played some, then we went to buy some more, and bought the big boys, rockets and mortar, the 36 shots of fireworks and the classic CNY firecracker!.

at first this is how many we bought, then we think that it's not enough we want more BOOM!

BOOM!!! we spent almost all of our money in there! around 200 SGD worth of fun and a huge risk of death and injuries!... why because there were a few faults by the rockets and the mortar, a few rockets didn't fly but explode in front of our faces!.. a mortar that was fired and landed in front of our chalet and exploded! and a 36 shot of fireworks that dropped while firing and 1 or 2 shots hit the side.. very very dangerous.. check facebook for the videos.

In there we went high on the Ktv too, there was only one English disk, so we sang it like the whole day..lol.. mostly me hogging the mic..hahaha.. how high did i go? well it's like taking 2 screws off the head and taking off the skull... real crazy day..

i look forward to going there again, this time with more cash and more firepower.

la fondue

offers a wide range of fondue, a cozy fun environment, have a homely feel against a medieval castle like...
whatever load of bollocks they say.. they can't provide that... i have never ever ever walked out of a restaurant before and this is the first.. reason... they don't have anything on the menu other than pasta... walked into the restaurant, i see 2 people running the floor, not walking really running... got seated looked at the menu after sometime, ready to other the Christmas set, and the waitress said sorry we don't have this right now....sad.. why bother to offer us that menu?.. so we looked at the a la cart.. ready to order again.. and she said " so sorry we don't have the meat items right now"... !!!! WHAT!.. no meat items, no Christmas special?.. only pasta... decided to walk out and head to other place to eat..

why didn't she told us before we got seated?... it only makes them look stupid!.. no man power to run the restaurant.. better to close it rather than telling the customers that we don't have this and that and also the food will be bad because everything will be push out fast.

" Our staff is the foundation of our restaurant, and the diversity and talent they exhibit is paramount to our desire to create an experience for you that comforting and unusual. We are here to set the standard of professionalism in service not otherwise experienced in Singapore"
La Fondue

really?.. i didn't see one thing that they promise on their web... what a load of bollocks.. don't write that if you can't deliver that.

remake of ratatouille

i admit that the one at xz house(pot luck b'day) was a disaster.. not satisfied with it, and today i made it again.. it was so so much better... i like the flavour of balsamic vinegar and the tomato puree that i made not forgetting the portobello mushroom that gives it a earthy taste.. it does not overpower each other, the acidity and sweetness is good.. but there are 2 things to improve on, the texture and plating.. love it!

What does Christmas meant to you when you are a kid?

To me Christmas was all about gifts and toys, and not forgetting the red fat man. I remembered together with my brother we hung a red sock on our window the night of Christmas eve hoping that there would be a toy inside it... and the next day there was a toy in it!.. we really thought that Santa really visited us and gave us a toy each, then we ask our dad did he put that toy in and he denied it.. it was one of the happy childhood moments that i had..

What does it mean to you now?

Right now it's not about toys anymore, but about people and God, not forgetting the food as well..lol.. it's about how God came to earth to live and die for us, also not forgetting that he rose on the 3rd day. seeing people coming to know God and being transform by him is the most amazing thing that one can ever see, truly it's not by might but by the spirit that touches that person as he/she continuously to seek his face.

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I recognise this feeling inside me, it feels like it's eating my heart.. making it more empty and there it is loneliness, for the past few days it was eating me which i did not realize it nor did i check it, until i can't stand that feeling anymore and decided to seek God and ask why is this happening again. And this is what he said

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, as the heavens are higher than the earth so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55: 8-9

Indeed i will never understand God enough.. and soon enough he lifted that feeling away from me.
As i check that void maybe there is a longing for a complete family, an intimacy that i long for. But i know all these will never fill that cross shape figure in my heart.
For God longs to come in and eat with us, he desires that intimacy with us, he is jealous when other things are placed first other than him.

God forgive me of my sins.
" Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need" Hebrews 4:16

Dear Singapore,

there are a few things that i'm piss off about here.

1) Food- as always i'm concern that Singaporeans do not know what is good food all about. Today i was at bugis hawker centre and i ordered this prawn omelet that cost $5 and i don't think they understand the word omelet. Omelet is beaten eggs mixed with ingredients, like herbs, cheese or things you want to add in. Apparently this guy beat some eggs and cooked it into a nice square(maybe he thinks that he did something great and tried to impress me with that perfect square shape) and just added 5 pieces of OVERCOOKED prawns on top of it and some coriander on it. Looking at it, i really really with all my might just felt like throwing that thing at his face!, but i don't want to make a big scene and he is just a nearly old man. So help me here do something about the food or Michelin guide will rate Singapore as the worst country to eat in.

Good is food is about the taste, texture and presentation. Never trust those with some award winning shit or some channel U bollocks.

2) Drivers- YES drivers now i know what my English and Australian mate meant that Singaporeans are the worst drivers. They cause a massive jam everywhere when there is a accident and worst still it does not AFFECT their lane. Reason they slow down is because they are busybody, trying to get the licence plate so that they can buy 4D hoping that they will win 1st prize which will never happen.

next why do some drivers signal right and turn left or signal left and turn right?.. are they stupid?

why some people will just suddenly stop before turning in at a busy road which cause their car to be in a 45 degree angle and create a potential accident?

why are there so many ERP and cars on the road?.. so that government can earn more money?
how about taking some cars off?..

3) Foreigners- why is this country letting in more china and Bangladeshi workers which are causing more problems and making this country less safe?... because they are cheap labours?


But there are Good points in the country too.

Yahweh- A name which use to describe God as a personal God if i'm not wrong... i've been listening to Yahweh from hillsong faith hope love album.. i think that song is beautiful..
reminds me that God is a personal God, he knows us everything inside out and the best thing is we don't have to act or hide about anything.

Happy question

is there a sentence on my forehead that says "please disturb me"?...

well... if i have to... then i will be your victim...lol


Serious question

what are my strength and weakness?

yes i do know like 2 or 3... but friends around me should see more.. because many times i'm blind and not observing myself

2 things that make me smile today

1) a kitchen mate whom i use to work with at 53, is now giving his life to jesus!, last time when he came into the kitchen he is a half hearted christian, but now he gives his life to GOD!

2) I invited another kitchen mate who is still studying at TP (came to 53 for attachment like me) for christmas service and he said he will come! thank God!..

now waiting for 3 more replys!..

GOD i've done my part, now it's your turn to soften their hearts and clear any rubbish and bring them for service. AMEN.

today i went to coffee bean at amk hub wanting to read my books- bible and science and lore of the kitchen by Harold McGee(he is a brilliant scientist)... because of his book it made me want to study one last thing.. which is food science.. all about chemistry, biology and physics. that is a tough thing to study.. i got no basics.. but that is just a feel like thing some of the things that he wrote was a slap in the face, because i can't understand it!.. but this reminds me when i was a kid i wanted to become a scientist.. why because it's interesting.. maybe God is leading me there?.. or it is just one of my interest..

so anyway i was reading my books, then a guy came looking for a power point and it happened that my table have one so i offered him to seat with me... before that i already notice that guy, and i ask god bring him here so that i can try to talk to him.. i tried talking to him.. it didn't really start well.. i was thinking what should i ask him.. took me a while to think then i open my mouth "excuse me what are you doing?.. because i see many people around coffee bean and starbucks bringing their laptop doing something".. he replied i checking my mail... then he asked "where are you from?" "huh?" i replied then he asked again and say if i'm local, "yeah".. i'm thinking then where on earth did i look like i'm from.. strange... the way he reply tells me that "i don't want to talk now and i don't know you" tough to talk to this guy.. so i ask after a few minutes "what kind of sales?" he said "IT" "how long have you been in there?" "3 years".. man he really don't want to talk to me.. so i think ok, i'll back down.. God i tried but he didn't want to talk to me... after he was done we exchange a few words and he left... i guess singapore is not use to this kind of friendliness..

well God i tried...

lifestyle evangelism

where does my help comes from?.. it comes from the lord, the author of heaven and universe...

remember this song?... anyway this is what i sang the moment i woke up this morning before going for service.. i don't know at first, just a sudden burst of that song... then during worship in service the word of God was spoken in

PSALM 121: 1-2 " I lift up my eyes to the hills- where does my help comes from?. My help comes from the lord the maker of heaven and earth."

it was the exact same thing that i sang in the morning.. not a coincident.. so from my point of view Problem is coming my way.. not sure what is it, but something definitely coming my way, and i think it will be big. because that verse and song is reminding me that help comes from God, the creator of everything, and if you continue to read the whole of psalm 121 it is saying that no matter what God is with you, he won't leave you, he will be there to go through the problems that you face.. you are not alone... whoever is reading this remember psalm 121, in your problems.. i got to remember it too.. lol

problems = growth

letter, letter... FINALLY!! 26 of February 945am report at pula tekong-
OH YEAH!!! the moment my dad told me about it, it felt like as if i won 1st prize form buying 4D(NO i never bought it before). looks like my country never forgets about me.. and then in January is back to 53 for 1 month, why because i promise that i will work till my enlistment come and who knows it's already here and also the money that i work for will be given to church building fund.. Hope is where i grew up, so it's my home too...although in the past there were thoughts of running and finding a new home... but that's in the past.

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