this is my 100th post for this blog...

there are 2 things which my mind can't process... the first one would be why are people's thinking so different from mine?.. as in why some people think that some things are hard to do and why i find some things easier to get it done?.. like making a decision... to make something happen you must make a decision, what's so difficult about that?.. whithout it your life can't move on!... but yet some people find it hard and they dwell in it for a long long time.. then maybe after months they decide to move on.. i wonder why?..
that's not it.. some people only knows how to get into trouble.. they don't know how to prevent trouble.. like having too much fun.. is normal to go out have fun but it's not normal when you have too much fun that lands you into deep shit... like gambling.. it's addictive.. some people love to go casino to gamble.. but there must be a limit to that.. but some Nooooooo... i want to win till i'm happy.. but they end up losing till they drop.. and then get other people into trouble and then other people have to clean up their mess for them.. what in the world are some people thinking?.. can't they just think for others and themselves?

that's one thing.. now the other thing is something that is a little extrem.. but some of you readers may think i'm nuts!!.. well maybe i am....
2 nights a go i tried to imagine what is it feels like to be dead... while lying on the bed, i closed my eyes and start to think that i'm on my death bed.. then i tried to imagine that i'm dead.. but my mind stops on the death bed, it can't go on anymore.. i don't know why.. but it made my heart pound a little faster.. and guess what, i think i have a fear of death.. i know that i will be with God.. but it's more of the experience that i'm afraid.. and i can't imagine what heaven it will be like.. it's too awesome that my mind just can't imagine it.. some of us wants heaven to be a beautiful place where God will give us what we want.. but i think that is just a dream that why you can imagine it.. but try imaging you being with god.. try to see the picture clearly in your mind and try to feel it.. if you can i would say your mind is powerful... but i can't do that.. it's like an imperfect person who wants to see God face to face now.. His glory is so powerful that it will just kill you.. maybe that's why my sinful mind can't reach there yet...

I DON'T INTEND TO KILL MYSELF..

soon i will be going off for attachment.. and i will miss you DI peeps.. my attachment is from monday to saturday.. and i have to go for adult service.. but before i go i will do my best to train those i want to train.. time is short.. but anyway.. do miss me.. haha.. trying to be lame...
there is one book i would like to recommend.. it's called leadership Gold by john c.maxwell. I love that book it got me excited about leadership... and in that book it can be applied in organisation as well as in the church.. it's a must read if you want to improve in your leadership skills... there are some things we thought we know... but it will be a wake up call to many.. because we just need to be reminded..

blogging time......

my favourite topic right now is ERP (electronic road pricing) also known as Everywhere rob people, or every road pay... let's think about it.. more ERPs, price increase in ERPs.. lets see.. the very reason that it came up because people were complaning about jams at highways.. now LTA thinks that it will make it a smoother road but from my point of veiw it still gets JAM!!! so what's the point?... then more people are using alternative route and guess what ERPs are coming up on the alternative route.. for what?..
to make smoother traffic or just money grabber? i received this email that makes a joke out of it.. next time we will have gaintries at MRT doors!.. what a joke.. so does the government really understand how we people feel?.. there are things that can't be help right now because of the world facing it.. like oil, food prices going up.. then about taxes well to say we are not top for our taxes.. england's tax is way skyhigh so it's kinda blessing that our taxes are not that high YET.

but there are things that the government can help drivers like me to save cost.. NO ERP!!, NO COE( a stupid piece of paper which cost $10,000?) have lesser cars on the road! (that will help on the jam) NO radio TAX( yes, there is such thing if you want radio in your car).... if you take out all these government will still be able to earn millions of dollars..
so right now my point of view is that, the government are MONEY GRABBERS.. and also my dad's pay don't increase.. average singaporean family have 6K per month.. how to survive? some maybe 4K or even 3K how to survive?... I can't wait to see jack neo's new movie "MONEY not enough 2".. i want to see what he got to say about the government. and singaporeans are working very very hard! but pay is still like shit!! the only pay that increases is government.

WHY WON"T singaporeans stand up and fight for what they belief?? is that stupid or is that way too stupid?.. at the end of the day government are just people with "power" which they can abuse.. how about a one to one fight challenge?.. we'll see who win.. the young ones or the old ones?..

living in this country is all stressful.. never will i raise my kids here...

another country i watch on Tv was north korea.. what a dumb ass the people are.. kana physco by "God" of their country... north korea got no internet access they are dump people anything good they praise their "god".. i want to see at the end of days who will they praise their "god" or our GOD jesus christ.. i just want to lable them a bunch of stupid fools!... they are suffering there.. an average 7 yr old boy is 10cm shorter and 10 kg lighter!! they are skin and bones! they got no proper food to grow.. but i know there are many who got brains but can't get out of the country.. lord have mercy on them.. because when they are caught they will be killed, with the whole family.. only dumb and stupid north koreans praise their government for all the good things..

now about myself.. all i want to do now is to give my best for the next 3 months.. it's like my last lap to serve in DI.. because after that 1 yr attachment day off only on sunday. if i give give my best for the next 3 months will the people give their best as well?.. a question that all must think..

i hope my blog is interesting to all you people who reads it and maybe can think through about what i blog..

ok guys.. some stuff to say
first i have just ended my 3 months training attachment.

second my holidays are ending which is like today is the last day and monday i'm going back to school

third kelvin's cg got a total of 6 converts!! congrets

forth i didn't my final prac exam.. a little horrible because i got sea food and they give me one portion 2 squid, 2 prawns, at least 100gm of seabass and 30gm of salmon and they say my portion is small!

and last i just got into a small car accident!..