It's ending!!! but i'm gonna miss the place.. it's tough but that's how we will grow Lennon.

Men's conference was good, because God showed me how much he really love and care.
During the time of worship prompted by the holy ghost to kneel down before God and worship him, i obeyed. Then flash back of memories came, when i was young i got lost in the market once and i cried big time, then this lady out of no where held my hand searching to look for my mom and finally found her. So then i just cried before God because he showed me that he was actually holding me when i was lost in the market.. God really brought me back to be just like a child before him, to be true before him, to admit that i'm really lost without him, and also there is another message behind this, he wants me to bring those who are lost too. He wants to show that he is holding everyone that is lost. I could just feel the heart cry of God. But where do i start? Today's service was about bringing children back to God, somehow it's related to this experience. So am i suppose to start from there?.. because there is also a opportunity for me to do that this children'a day...

i wonder if that is really God's calling.

i've made up my mind that i'm not going to extend my work for 2 weeks. i just find that it's not worth it, going through the same shit again.

i stab my hand while opening oysters, the feeling was almost the same as how i got my fingers cut, went to the hospital and got 4 stitches on. nothing big, but a little useless with one hand down can't bathe properly, can't do many things but it's recovering well thank God.

i got to cut down on my meat, almost everyday or every day i'm eating the trimmings of it, it's good but bad for me can't really resist it. lol i mean who can resist a grade 12 wagyu beef? or a perfectly cooked chicken?