i really want to thank God for where i am today, the vocation in the army. I'm starting to realise how great it is to have the skill of troubleshooting vehicles, repairing and servicing. yesterday was learning about bikes and it's very interesting! i'm starting to love it! love to fix and importantly loving to ride. My bike licence in on the way hoping to get it before mid year and buying a bike will be take into consideration...

a second hand bike can cost at least 2k, a second hand car cost at least 40k.. huge difference!
for a bike full tank is only like $10 and it can run for almost a week depending on how you ride, for a car full tank cost like $90!!! and also can run for a week..
but when safety is concern i think it really depends on the rider or driver.. people can drive crash and die, bike is also the same but the death risk of bike is way higher.. so... i think i will take bike.. not that i want to risk my life but it's cheap and less hassle.

hmmm......

there are so many things that i want to say, but i don't know where to start.

camp:

I think the new year sucks for me.. not just new year but also chinese new year. Why?.. because of guard duty. This whole thing is really making me sick of being a Singaporean.. i'm doing because not that i love this country, i'm doing it because i've got no choice, no say, and also because i must listen to your rank(which is not leadership at all) i really want to leave so bad and just fly away from here.

After 5pm:

life after 5pm is also not really good, friends are killing each other. Makes me think of closing myself up.. seriously who can i turn to when everyone is just fighting and not solving it properly. things that pop out from my head are finding new people to mix around with. who can i trust... and many more.

church:

I need leaders! I need people who are willing to step out from the comfort zone and just move forward!.. GOD IF I FAIL, I FAIL WITH YOU. please send me people who are strong and willing to go all out for you.

Home:

not everything is going smooth... i start to wonder why mom haven't call to remind me to call her.. i know i should call.. but what do i say to mom?... i havent stay with her for the past 11 years.. it's tiring to keep trying to stay connected... i'm just a mere man... i hope you understand.. you should know the choices you made 11 years ago will affect today, i'm sorry mom... but it's fustrating to be a middle man.

i'm not sure what to blog about right now, but there are always many things on my mind. right now the feeling of getting out of army is very strong. if i had a chance to just get out i would do it.

GOD!!!! help me to pull through!!

the stress for the new year is gone, but now another piss off thing in the army again, nothing will ever change will it?.. now 8 of us got to sign for extra duty which is not our fault at all! is either the 8 of us are blur idiots or they don't dare to admit mistakes they made. bollocks to the army!. no wonder everybody wants out of the army. poor management and communication! the truth is if your parents go to any camp on a normal day, they will question why am i paying tax for this? really pissed off! got to get out of here as soon as 1 more year pass and never turining back, unless god wants me to.

this is what the Lord had spoken to me

ARK OF COVENANT

the ark represents God's glory, his foothold on the law, his presence, his mercy seat, his throne.

without the ark, all hope is lost for Israel... the battles they fought will be lost.

but today context some battle are still lost. because we as high priest are not carrying the ark into the battlefield. We are not clean and God won't let us carry it.. in the past those who are not priest will die if they touch or look at the ark. If a priest is not clean he can't carry the ark!. so are we clean today? have we really repent? have we ask for forgiveness?

clearing leave this month.

I have a warrent officer in my unit that loves to apply leave and still comes back to work!
what's wrong with him? he might as well make the camp his home or something.
and from what i heard from the old birds was he love to take other units gurad duty and give it to us! this is way too stupid.. everyone in there hates him and i can fully understand why although he is nice.

And so another christmas story.

the year is ending again, it's so fast! i can still remember what i did last year end.
i've already invited some of my army friends and one of them said ok, 2 other were not sure as they may have plans so God you need to do your work. i've tried my best.

recently i'm addicted to sermon podcast and i'm listening at least 2 times a day i and still got many more sermons to go, i just kept downloading and i realise that i got 84 sermons to go!! i think i've covered 10 still got 74 more, but it's a good thing to get addicted to the word of God!