back from Brisbane

it's a nice place to be in actually, the air is clean, the streets are clean and even the public toilets are very clean!... the people are nice too... a slow pace of life, sun's up by 6am, people start to flood the street, they close by 530pm.. i think they start work at 9.. man the working hours are short. So i would say it's better to live over there... as for the food.. i think it's slightly better than Sg... so anyway, we went to hope Brisbane on Sunday for service, and it's Good, they d0n't have a full band, they don't have a building, but they have a heart for Jesus...
we went in for the 1st service half way and near the ending of the sermon, the fire alarm rang, and everyone had to evacuate the building, they said that this had never happen before, it was an experience, so after that we went for their word for life, i went for leadership summit.. it talks about the general things about a leader, leading your own life, leading in your work place, etc... the first lesson was about a holy discontent, i read that book before, and it was a refreshment, you could just feel the heart of bill.. a question to ponder is what is the one thing you can't stand, what is the one thing that break your heart, because if that thing breaks your heart, it must have break God's heart too... what is that Popeye moment "I can't stand, i can't stands no more"... moses Popeye moment was seeing his own people getting beat up by Egyptians and God stop him at the burning bush. Nehemiah moment was seeing Jerusalem's wall broken and people mocking God.
so what is your popeye moment?

it's that time of the year again-- CNY!
what's new?--- nothing, nothing new at all.. it's a routine once again eating all that heavy food that will make me gain some weight, but thank God I'm controlling all those stuff.

It's sad to see my dad again not visiting with us. His sister and mom ask my brother and I where is he?, what is he doing?... and i really don't know how to answer that.. I believe that everyone knew what happened in the past, but no one simply bother to tell me exactly what happened and why.. really getting sick of this.. every year he would just be alone during this time.. and it sucks to see it happening... it's always bits and pieces that i need to think and assume what happened... sometimes i think and believe that it's because of the divorce, because of a bad mother in law... then another lover comes by and there a broken family.. and so not staying with my mom for like 11 years.. i can feel that each year the relationship is just getting thinner and thinner.. i don't share as much as how i would in the past.. it seems like she is just going to be another person... sometimes i think to myself, why should i care about my family and relatives, when the victims are my brother and I.. and sometimes i wonder do i actually love them?.. even my bro and dad.

the heart is numb to all these emotions... it's just a scar for life..

So being back in polydins service... what am i gonna do next?... impact lives, reach new grounds.. that is where faith comes into play
i'm starting to feel that i need more of it.. so much more..
Got to make an impact wherever i go-- a motto that i made yrs ago
the only thing that i look forward is the end of the next 2 yrs and the life after that.. so much more to experience, work and travel, first stop will be England in 2014 next maybe Spain then Germany.... 3 country in 5 yrs.. then back to sg and open a restaurant... by then will be around 31.. damn life is too short.. all these years will be a blink of an eye..

things to worry about:
1) will i be able to survive in Europe for 5 yrs? (able to understand the culture, language..?)
2)will i be able to reach out to Europe? (will they listen to me because i'm an Asian?)
3)will i be able to open my own restaurant? (money?.. chefs don't earn big bucks)
4)where can i find a life partner that can tolerate my nonsense? (work 16 to 18 hours a day, being picky about food)

i will find out in years to come..

it has come to the point of me losing appetite whenever i think of what to eat for lunch or dinner... Food sucks here!... it needs a big change! everyone needs to learn how to cook properly.. even some tom, dick and harry can just open a food stall and just sell what they like and earn some cash.. i think all should have a cert or something just to sell food.. to show that you know how to cook.. what is wrong with this country! i'm sick of it!.. you can say that i have high standards or whatever.. truth is the food really suck here... people need to learn how to eat right as well.. fast food is cheap but it will kill you.. or how about buying some food to bring home to cook that will cost more but is healthier?... why singaporeans can't cook?.. because of the lifestyle.. too fast, too busy.. only want it cheap... food is easily to get, just go down to some hawker or coffee shop and there you have it... but in Europe.. you will never get such luxury.. the people eats at home everyday... because it's too expensive to buy outside, and they don't have 24hr coffee shop... i feel so pissed off, disappointed...